I give up on myself.
I fall apart. I utterly disintegrate.
I am collapsing, hollow, pretending.
I am terrified of being seen, of being me.
I'm hiding. I don't want the world to see me.
I'm not good enough.
I try, but I just can't pull my life together.
The things I try to do don't work. I am a failure.
I'm just not wanted.
I've got nothing to contribute.
I get in the way.
I hold things back.
I am a big black hole full of shit.
I constantly eat it.
I hold all the things that I can't do.
I have a negative view of life.
I'm waiting for permission, for the starting gun.
I wonder when my life starts.
I don't know if I'm allowed.
I fix, rescue, and take care to cover my not good enough.
I don't believe in myself.
I try to be something for other people, what I think they want me to be.
If I am myself, they might not like me. I do the extra thing to please others.
I'm not good enough. I can't change.
On this workshop you will have a chance to explore, embody and witness your Crumbling King.
If this is the King who is mostly on your throne you will struggle in life. It is vitally important to know this suffering King so that you don't try to get this part of you to lead your life.
See you there.
With love from Hugh.
Hugh Newton is inviting you to a scheduled Zoom meeting.
Topic: Hugh Newton's Zoom Meeting
Time: Oct 13, 2022 07:00 PM London
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Meeting ID: 341 415 1505